HungerFF Presents: Brolapse

This week on Brolapse, Ryan James sits down with Sofftpaw for a conversation that goes far beyond a typical guest interview.

Sofftpaw is the founder of the Fist Council — a nationwide forum made up of leaders from over 35 fisting clubs and organizations. What started as a simple idea—connecting event organizers—has evolved into a powerful network focused on collaboration, education, and building safer, more sustainable spaces for the community.

The episode begins with Sofftpaw’s personal journey into fisting, from a post-pandemic “guilty pleasure” to a defining part of his life. With guidance from mentors he calls his “fisting dads,” he developed a structured, methodical approach rooted in anatomy, training, and intention—something he believes many newcomers are missing.

From there, the conversation expands into how the Fist Council was formed: not as a “shadowy organization,” but as a grassroots collaboration between organizers who wanted to share knowledge instead of compete. Together, they exchange best practices, support new club founders, and work toward creating consistent standards for safety, consent, and event production across cities.

Ryan and Sofftpaw also dive into the evolution of the modern fisting scene—from the post-COVID boom in participation to the growing visibility of fisting within larger kink spaces like IML. They explore the diversity of club models, the importance of community, and how chosen family often emerges from shared experience.

The episode closes on a deeper note, examining how kink intersects with mental health, neurodivergence, rejection sensitivity, and personal growth. At its core, this conversation isn’t just about fisting—it’s about belonging, connection, and what happens when a community learns how to build itself from the inside out.

🎙️ A thoughtful, funny, and unexpectedly emotional episode that captures a pivotal moment in the evolution of the scene.

In this episode of Brolapse, Ryan James (HungerFF) sits down with Belgian creator Pup Davey for one of the most wide-ranging and honest conversations the show has had yet.

Davey opens up about discovering fisting long before he ever saw it in porn, experimenting as a teenager and realizing early that anal stretching and depth play were going to be a major part of his sexual identity. Puppy play came later through Tumblr’s aesthetic kink culture, where a cheap hood from Amazon eventually led to a full-blown pup identity.

The conversation explores the psychology behind kink discovery, how identity evolves through community, and the role aesthetic and headspace play in puppy culture.

Davey also talks openly about his gender journey and describes himself as a “hyper femboy”, sharing what it’s been like to explore gender fluidity and start estrogen while navigating a large audience in adult content.

Other topics include:

• The difference between instinctual kink discovery and community-driven kink culture
• How exposure fetish content once became addictive and the real consequences it caused
• Toy training, depth play, and how limits evolve over time
• The reality of maintaining a massive online audience
• The changing dynamics of kink events like Darklands
• Balancing authenticity, humor, filth, and vulnerability online

It’s a conversation that moves between hilarious, chaotic, thoughtful, and deeply human moments.

As always, Brolapse aims to humanize the performers people obsess over online and show the real lives behind the content.

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In Episode 77 of Brolapse, Ryan James (HungerFF) sits down with Chicago-based creator Grayson Howell to talk about the unexpected path that led him into content creation, kink culture, and the world of fisting.

What starts as a conversation about a viral scene with Wyld Rider quickly turns into something deeper. Grayson opens up about his past working as an LGBTQ addiction counselor, the burnout that came with that career, and the moment he decided to finally take a leap and start posting adult content online.

Along the way, the two discuss body confidence, therapy, and how the bear community helped Grayson find a new sense of self. He also shares how experienced friends in Minneapolis guided him through his first fisting experience, turning what started as curiosity into a passion.

The conversation explores Chicago’s massive fetish ecosystem, long-running kink communities, IML, the rise of fisting culture in modern porn, and why mentorship and trust are central to the scene.

Grayson also breaks down his philosophy as a soft dom fisting top, including why training partners slowly, prioritizing chemistry, and emphasizing aftercare makes for the best experiences.

The result is an episode that is funny, thoughtful, and unexpectedly wholesome for a podcast about punching holes.

X (Twitter):
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Instagram:
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Linktree (OnlyFans, JustForFans, etc):
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🎙️ Brolapse is a podcast exploring sex, identity, kink culture, and the people shaping the community from the inside out.

In this raw and deeply personal episode of Brolapse, Ryan James sits down with one of his closest friends and former roommate, Josh Mikael, for a conversation that spans decades of history, hard truths, and unconditional love.

Josh shares his fisting origin story—one that began earlier than most—and reflects on it now with the clarity that only time and experience can bring. What starts as a wild, chaotic introduction quickly evolves into a broader conversation about consent, growth, and the reality that not every formative experience is meant to be repeated.

The two revisit the night they first met at a Leatherworks Red Hanky social in Fort Lauderdale, a moment that would lead to a lasting bond, a blown-out set of tires, and a friendship built through shared experiences, tension, and ultimately, understanding.

The heart of the episode centers on Deeper—Ryan’s memoir—and Josh’s decision to write the foreword. He explains why he felt it had to be him: someone who has loved Ryan, challenged him, called him out, and never wanted anything from him in return. The result is a foreword that doesn’t protect, doesn’t condemn, but instead tells the truth.

Together, they unpack addiction, the ripple effects it has on the people around you, and the complicated reality of loving someone who is struggling. They also dive into content culture, performer value, and why Josh drew a hard line when others didn’t—refusing to give away his image for free in an industry that often expects it.

This episode is funny, painful, reflective, and honest in a way that’s rare. It’s about friendship, accountability, survival—and the idea that telling your story might be the first step toward understanding it.

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This week on Brolapse, HungerFF sits down with Ian Greene for a long-overdue conversation that spans years of crossing paths, shared experiences, and personal evolution.

Ian opens up about his fisting origin story — from early curiosity and pushing his limits, to training his body and discovering what he was truly capable of over time. What starts as a pursuit quickly becomes something deeper: a journey rooted in patience, self-awareness, and learning to listen instead of force.

The conversation expands into body confidence, growth, and the reality behind what people see online. Ian reflects on stepping away from the industry during COVID, reconnecting with family, and how that time away reshaped his perspective on health, boundaries, and longevity.

They also dive into collaboration, chemistry, and authenticity in content creation — why chasing numbers doesn’t compare to real connection, and how trusting your instincts can define your path both on and off camera.

This episode is about evolution — not just physically, but mentally and emotionally — and what it really means to grow into yourself.

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